hiatus from what?

my trip to boston went very well. i don't know if it was fine quality t that made the recovery less terrible than the last time or the fact that i slept or at least rested a couple of hours after i partied, thanks to some oxycontin that my friend gave me, but i felt like myself again a couple days later.

i did have a great time with the guy i partied with before i left. he pissed in my ass twice and it was wonderful. the strong rhythmic pulse of his cock as he filled me with his tina piss, which really had me flying, was something i thought about often on that train ride to boston and i still think about it, smiling, now. it may be that he is not a bitch to give a blowjob to, but just particular about how it is done and it has taken me a while to get that down or maybe not. either way he has gotten me to be a better bottom, using my ass muscles more to milk the cock that's fucking me and angling my ass up higher while lying on my stomach. he also taught me how to use a shower shot the right way. all in all he is a nice guy and a good guy to know. he is poz and we had talked about the fact that last time i checked i was neg. that hasn't deterred either of us from getting his loads inside my mouth (2) or ass (1). i just wish we talked more. the best time we had i felt was when we were partying because we talked more and about more then than ever since. i may be asking for too much. i suppose if it ever becomes a big enough problem or concern for me i will let him know. actually i think it is likely that i will let it go for quite a bit beyond that, but i am sure i will tell him sooner or later.

finally met someone off of bnskin, a hot guy who really knows how to have fun. we flipped and each dumped a load in the other, then he found a friend of his on manhunt who then came over, and we both fucked him singly then double fucked him. it was hot. for me it was much better to be the guy thrusting than the guy who is stationary. i guess that is pretty intuitive, but the difference between lying on my back and keeping my cock in the bottom's ass and my fucking the bottom with the other guy's cock in his ass was amazing. if i had only been in the lying on my back position i would have thought the whole thing was overrated. after my friend dumped his second load in the bottoms ass the bottom guy fucked me a bit and that was pretty much it. afterwards i had two large loads of cum out of my ass, maybe the bottom came in me too. i called my friend from bnskin once, but haven’t spoken to him since. i guess i’m not rushing to contact him, debating my partying habits, but, if i ever do get my hands on any favors, i'd be inclined to let him know because i had such a fine time straight i can only imagine what a little t would do.

my last serious/boring paragraph is also devoted to my meeting with the guy from bnskin. we were talking about how hot smoking is, especially when someone takes a hit and then exhales into your mouth. he told me it was called 'shotgunning' a term i had never heard before. this brought me back to a party at a friend's house in the 12th grade when i was taught how to take a shot of tequila: the whole preparation of licking your wrist sprinkling on the salt and then salt, lime and drink, or whatever the order was. i think i made this connection because both times i was an innocent, a babe in the woods being taught about things that some would say it were best i never knew. it made me think about how, on some level i see the bareback guys i play with as the cool guys, the guys i want most to be like. i am not sure exactly why, maybe what i see as a rebellion against the safe sex message, or a rebellion against what i think society thinks that i should do. maybe because they are cool, in that there is a certain careless freedom to just taking your cock and sticking it in someone's ass without a condom, without worrying. maybe that's it, as a worrying type of person the impression i get that these guys do not worry is very appealing and is something that i want to do too. i am pretty sure they do worry from time to time, but that is not part of my fantasy of them (of me?). acting without thinking, while it can be dangerous and not only in regards to sex, is very appealing, especially to someone like me who thinks way too much.