here i am

still here, haven't written much lately, haven't felt much like it. happy new year to anyone reading this who i haven't already wished a happy one to. still as unsure as ever, and as usual still have 2 beers in me. off today and trying to hook up or do something else useful with the day.

had a chance with one guy from bnskin, but it seems he disappeared and never called after his shower. another guy is not available and said that he hasn't had much luck getting party favors lately, which is the main reason i want to hook up, but not the only reason. the last guy is working this afternoon so i wasn't able/willing to rush to get there in time. other contacts were reached out to but, as yet, have not responded.

i had been waiting on posting and editing these notes of mine but have decided that posting immediately is the way to go. it is too much to ask of myself to look it over when i barely get it typed out the first time.