thank you very much

i missed out on reneging on my plan to not party again for a while by a hair's breadth. this guy on bnskin who party's was online and i messaged him letting him know that if i didn't have to work, i would have begged to cum over (actual text of message is as follows: hope all is good with you, gotta work tomorrow otherwise i'd beg to come over and party a bit ). this elicited a response about calling out sick and we went back and forth a bit (4 beers were consumed by me as these negotiations went on). ultimately he got some other hot guys (other?) to come over for some pnp. i would have loved to go over this guys house and partied with him and his friends, but i knew/thought/assumed on some level if i did i would leave poz. and also really fucked up, which i assume would mean another 11 days, well actually more like 5 or 6 days if we are talking about a semblance, until i felt a semblance of what i feel like normally. i was too slow in committing to go over his place, big surprise to anyone who knows me. he had some good quality too from what he told me. is this d/evolving into a drug blog from a sex blog? i hope not. i really wish i had been able to go to his place; some hot guys are going to be there. but ultimately it is probably best as i am going to the pla conference in boston next week and i do not want to be fucked up for that.

and the thought just jumped into my head, why don't i go to a sex club right now? i am drunk and cleaned out anyway so why not? the reason that i have to work in 9.75 hours comes to mind immediately, but i was willing to brush that off and plan on calling out when i had the option of partying with this guy.

i think it best that i don't go, drink plenty of water and get to bed so that i can be in some shape to face the day tomorrow.