really?
i saw a guy from men4sexnow this weekend. a second hook-up, pretty much a record for me, so i was happy. then i was thinking of going to the met to see the van gogh drawings, realized that i didn't want to face the crowds on a sunday afternoon, so i thought i would catch "corpse bride" on 34th. it wasn't playing so i figured i would just get something to eat, convinced that i would not drink and end up having sex all the rest of the day. well...i did drink and i did end up having sex the rest of the day. went across the street to the bookstore on 8th and 34th and fooled around a bit. then decided upon the west side club and stayed from around 4:30 to almost 3 in the morning. i did have fun though. got fucked bare 3 times, i believe someone came in me, but it may have been the guy earlier in the day or my imagination.
the last couple hours i spent with a guy i had met before. he constantly is looking for more guys and has his head out the door hoping to recruit guys to come in. there were some hot guys in the room, at one point 5 of us. this one hispanic guy was really into crystal. he talked about how great it was as we were playing with his nipples. his dick was not hard at all though even though he still enjoyed getting sucked. the recruiter was also partying. it was an experience that at least makes me think about crystal in a more critical way. i would still like to try it and really feel what it is like, by which i mean smoke it and feel that high that people refer to instead of the small snorts that people have let me try from time to time. at the same time i feel, as many people have written to me, that it is important to see it as a tool to an end (fabulous sex) and not as the end itself. i think the same applies to my drinking, which is not out of control, but i feel i should control it better. i do not believe that drinking to get myself drunk enough to take raw cock and possibly loads is a good idea. someone had written me that when i take his raw poz cock up my ass he wants me to be clear minded. it makes sense but it seems i have gotten in the habit of getting myself drunk to get fucked.
i guess the conclusion i draw from this experience and rambling is that if i really want bareback sex and i really want to take loads i do not have to get drunk to do it. and i do think that the "if" can be dropped from the previous sentence.
the last couple hours i spent with a guy i had met before. he constantly is looking for more guys and has his head out the door hoping to recruit guys to come in. there were some hot guys in the room, at one point 5 of us. this one hispanic guy was really into crystal. he talked about how great it was as we were playing with his nipples. his dick was not hard at all though even though he still enjoyed getting sucked. the recruiter was also partying. it was an experience that at least makes me think about crystal in a more critical way. i would still like to try it and really feel what it is like, by which i mean smoke it and feel that high that people refer to instead of the small snorts that people have let me try from time to time. at the same time i feel, as many people have written to me, that it is important to see it as a tool to an end (fabulous sex) and not as the end itself. i think the same applies to my drinking, which is not out of control, but i feel i should control it better. i do not believe that drinking to get myself drunk enough to take raw cock and possibly loads is a good idea. someone had written me that when i take his raw poz cock up my ass he wants me to be clear minded. it makes sense but it seems i have gotten in the habit of getting myself drunk to get fucked.
i guess the conclusion i draw from this experience and rambling is that if i really want bareback sex and i really want to take loads i do not have to get drunk to do it. and i do think that the "if" can be dropped from the previous sentence.
posted by cosmaz at 7:20 AM
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