not bare about bare

i can't do the laundry list of sexual acts. it's boring to write and it doesn't do what i want to do.

i met a friend who was having some drinks with some colleagues on friday. the conversation turned to me, my personal life and my ex. when i mentioned that i had not been the best boyfriend the question was asked "oh, are you a slut?" i answered truthfully and affirmatively. a hand of fellowship was extended and we started talking about the places to go when you are a slut in nyc. drugs, el mirage and the east and west side clubs were all discussed. when bb sex was brought up i kept quiet. i had been pretty open up about my experiences until then but i said absolutely nothing when bb came up, and it was mentioned more than once.

i guess i am still in the closet about barebacking. i don't do it all the time but i do let guys fuck me raw. i realize the risks and at the same time acknowledge that i would probably still be surprised and stricken were my results to come back poz one day. and i do realize that if i continue taking raw cock up my ass that will happen sooner or later.